A reminder of past pain

Note: it is kind of hard for me to type right now, I am laying in bed with my right leg very elevated and my mini-laptop on my chest (propped up on a blanket so I can see the keyboard) and I am more than a little doped up so bare with me.

Today I got my forth set of cortisone shots in my knees and for the first time the shot themselves were very painful due to inflammation of the joint and connective tissue.  Since it is difficult for me to take any kind of anti-inflammatory medicine due to the weight loss surgery making NSaId drugs dangerous for me I had not thought to take anything for swelling and since the pain was not too bad when I walked in I thought everything would be ok.

WRONG…the shots themselves were unusually painful and afterwards we went out to coffee and I walked a little thinking that it would help break down the crystals in the cortisone and loosen my knees up. WRONG AGAIN

we went home (appointment at 10:10, coffee around 11, then home by 1) and my right knee started to ache a bit so I went to bed and made a big mistake.  I had my electric throw over me and the heat from it may have increased the swelling because quickly the pain was excruciating and I could barely move.  Alex needed to sleep since he works nights so I got out of bed and took some pain meds and even some rum out of desperation and no luck.

A call to the doctors office had them informing me this sometimes happens and that if there is swelling before the shot it can be made worse which hurts and can pinch the already damaged nerves.  They said to elevate it and ice it (I hate that part)

I lay on the couch with my knee up and a bag of frozen cauliflower on it and called my mom and cried because the pain not only was so bad but because it reminded me of the years of pain I had with arthritis and the many many times I hurt this bad with arthritis when I was twice this big.  I had jinxed myself by saying that the worst pain with the cortisone worn off before the shot was not as bad as an average day at over 440.

I think if it is possible I have a form of PTSD where my knee pain is concerned, I am terrified of the pain not going away and spending the rest of my life like this.  There will come a time when I need the knee replacements and I understand that they are horribly painful for months and ache for up to years but I am trying to put it off if at all possible and lose more weight…I think I needed this reminder about how serious this all is to motivate me.

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One thought on “A reminder of past pain

  1. simplytrece says:

    My husband had knee replacement, and he did not find that it hurt for months afterward. In fact, he felt vastly better (as compared to before surgery) within 2 months, post op. Hope your pain recedes quickly. (((((HUGS)))))

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